HER SUICIDE STORY

Friday, September 24, 2004

WACKZ~!?! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO ME ??
SUCKZ~! I'M FOOL ~!
I'M PLAY WITH THE FIRE !!!!!!!!!!
past just a fuckin past ...
i couldn't goin back and shouldn'be goin back !
thats soundz so FUCKIN SUCK !!!
what the hell inside my fuckin head ??
DAMN~! FORBIDDEN FEEL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH
i wanna to suicide if i do that !
its better to me to die if i had that feel again !
DAMN~!!!!!!!!
GOD HELP ME TO AWAY FROM THAT FEEL !!!
LET ME FORGOT HIM !!!!
PLEASE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for IN : i dont mind about that..but i really can't...so just help me to face it! i'm not really wanna forget you..but you're just the part of my beautiful fuckin past..although i wanna to goin back but now i realize that i was not yours anymore and couldn't be yours anymore...
its all over and i wanna you to let me go........please find another me who more better than me...

-scream of my brain faced death at 1:09 AM

Saturday, September 18, 2004

the rain is comes...

the cloud cryin' like me...

i cry again coz think about am i still worthy for you with my condition like this ?

from before i'm already think about i'm unworthy for you...

but you say if you'll loved me with all my bad condition...

you'll loved me who the way i am...

such an unperfect gurl...

but day by the day i feel more unperfect and unworthy for you...

i'm disdain...

but...

i wanna be yours...

i wanna be perfect for you...

i wanna be worthy for you...

but i can't...

although i know you won't and don't care about this...

but i really wanna be the best for you...

i wanna be the last one for your life...

coz i really love you so...

i won't losing you...

coz now you're the only one who care about me...

i wanna you feel what i feel now...

i wanna you know how much i love you...

i really miss you so...

i can't wait so long...

i wanna see you smile at me...

but i feel so confused...

i'm so fuckin sad...

i got a doubt...

or i'm just stupid ?

if you already know all about me..still you'll loved me?

i really wanna know the answer...

but how and when ?

i can't wait again...

now i'm dying...

alomost die...

i need you to know...

now i want to spend all my last time with you...

are you feel the same?

do you need me??

i really loved you so !!!

i never feel like this before...

only you can understand me...

but still i worth for you ??

i don't think so...

oh GOD...

please help me...

make me to be worth for him...

make his mine...

forever...

i really love you so ELDO !!!

-scream of my brain faced death at 10:28 AM