Saturday, October 16, 2004
hendak pergi...
hendak menjauh...
hendak mati...
hendak terbang jauh...

hendak dirasakan...
asa terbuang....
hendak dilupakan...
asa terdampar...

hanya disini..
hendak pergi...
hanya disini...
dan segera mati...

hendak terbang...
sayap terpatahkan...
asa hilang...
tak dihiraukan...

ingin hanya ingin...
hendak hanya hendak...
disini aku sudah mati...
bukan di neraka atau di surga...

terbang hanya terbang...
tanpa sayap terkembang...
bukan hanya asa yang hilang...
kini jiwaku melayang...




-scream of my brain faced death at 1:34 PM

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Friday, October 15, 2004

-scream of my brain faced death at 5:19 AM

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Thursday, October 14, 2004
maafkan aku yang pernah ada dalam kehidupanmu...maafkan aku yang tak pernah membuat kamu bahagia..maafkan aku yang tak bisa melupakanmu...maafkan aku yang sangat menyayangimu...
maafkan aku...

for : ELDO

-scream of my brain faced death at 5:12 AM

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Wednesday, October 13, 2004
tell me right before my face
if ...
YOU HATE ME
YOU NEVER LOVE ME
YOU WANNA CAST ME AWAY FROM YOUR LIFE

just tell me now..
if ...
YOU NOT CARE ABOUT ME
YOU REALLY WANNA KILL ME
YOU JUST WANNA PLAY WITH ME

don't make me so fuckin dying but just kill me right now...

-scream of my brain faced death at 5:06 AM

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Monday, October 11, 2004
i'm dying...
i can't breath again...
you leave me when i really need you right beside me...

i'm sick...
everything is bleak...
you leave me when i need more love to still alive...

now i'm die...
die alone...
nobodyy care...
just me alone...
can't go to hell...
can't go to heaven...
just fly around the fuckin confuse...
i'm the unwanted..
i'm just nothin...
become nothin anywhere...
till i die still noone with me..
just me and my fuckin hypocrite..
i'm surely die now...
but i wontt you pity me...
coz i know now you forget me...

-scream of my brain faced death at 4:54 AM

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